tonight was good i think. i played Risk with my dad (BTW, best game ever!!!), then he made me a cheese burger, and took me home. i got home, and hung out with Megan. we talked about her boy friend and things like that. not much has changed sence i told her i was gay. or atleast not at that point in the night.
after that, i came home and hung out and talked to my mom for 45 minuets. i had a sort of small anxiety/panic attack. i really cant explain it. i was suposed to go driving for drivers edd tomorrow, thursday, and friday, but i just told my mom i couldent. i dont know why, but i just cant. no real way to explain it. its my anxiety. this only happened a few time before, but my mom understood. the good thing is this time it could be fixed, unlike the other times. my moms gona call tomorrow and reschedule it for after i meat with a psychologist or psychiatrist, or who ever can give me anxiety meds.
speaking of which, my mom started me tonight on a very small dose of anxiety meds. she asked her doctor who gave her the go ahead for me. i really hope it helps. its just so debilitating sometimes and i hate it. it makes me even more frustrated when i cant explain it.
now im talking to Megan and she's telling me how stressed she is and that she cant talk. i just told her about what i did with Peter, and somthing with another guy, and she dident reply. i sent her a message saying "no reply?" and thats when she said she was stressed.
Peace!
And So It Goes (2014)
9 years ago
4 comments:
hey kid, I just saw your post, and I hope you feel better quick!! Don't make me come over and kick your butt into shape!! lol... Seriously tho, get some sleep, and try not to worry... Everything will work out for the better, I promise!! love you... tman<3hugs2!!
I"m sorry you are having the anxiety problem. I hope the medication will do some good. I'm glad you can talk with your mother about these things. I hope you can continue on with your driver training. It's a big milestone getting your driver's license. It's a big step forward in achieving some independence, a necessary part of growing up.
Tman, thanks =) just woke up (noon) and am feeling better.
Brian, yeah, this is one of thoes few things i can talk to her about. ill be able to get my license, just maybe not as early as i hoped. haha i cant wait to be independent!
Peace!
Panic Attacks suck. My doctor says I have them because I worry all the time. They are not so bad now, lot times I feel it and I can stop it by just saying it is what is happening. If you don't stop them then they really do suck.
Can't wait till I can drive. But that's 2 years still. Can't get one till 16 here. Hugs JJ
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