Philosophies From A Kid

so guys, im sorry (for the BILLIONTH time) its been so long. i really wanted to make my next post from my own computer, but its taking longer than i though. they had to ship it away for a new hard drive. crashed that bad boy in 3 days! new record! yay me haha but its in now, and i have to drop off some CD's with back ups and stuff, theyll load it all up, and i should get it back on saturday.

anyway, my whole weeks been shit. in history, were talking about how tobacco saved the first american colonies... FML. perfect timing haha. and on top of that, iv been stressed as anything. iv missed so much school lately. last friday and monday, and i took today off too. ill explain that later. all my make up works stressing me out, and i have no way to deal with it anymore. its not fun.

so yeah, i missed school today. this is discusing, so you may want to skip this part haha. both my big toes have ingrown toe nails. i had to go to the doctors yesterday. well i took off monday because i was soo sleep deprived from the college trip (ill tell you guys bout that too later =P) and i went to my normal doctor, who sent me to a foot doctor. so i went yesterday thinking that he'd tell me whats wrong, and set up another day for the "proceger". well no, he goes "thoes are really infected. lay down." then he walked back out, faxed my mom a paper, she sighned it, and he walks in and goes "its is cold. it will help you with the local anestizia." i was like what!?!? hes like its 4 shots, then sprays me with the cold stuff and sticks me. its wasent fun. haha but when he was done with my toes, he bandaged them up and drew smiley faces on them haha.

after that i shoed up late to the water polo games. we won both. after that, i got my hair cut, then we went out for dinner. and as we were leaving, the feeling came back to my foot. it was hell! it felt like a steam roller went over my toes.

but anyway, im better now =) i just couldent walk all day at school. im deffinatly going tomorrow though. and there a peprally! im pumped.

so college, or university to you UK guys. it was cool seeing my sister. shes a junior transpher, so she only had a few friends, and only knew the campus so far. we showed up, and she picked us (my mom and i) up from the airport. then she showed us around the colleges. mostly the frats haha. we ate dinner at the college, then hung outside her dorm building. i we met one of her friends, who a gay guy. kinda cute, but hes a sophtmore so... yeah haha.

the next day we went shoping at a giant mall. i got a few things, but it then we left. we really dident do much that day. kinda lame haha.

no parties for me. my sister said she was sorry she couldent take me to any parties, but she dident know the guys well enough to just have her brother show up at a party. i understood.

then we left. haha i t was good to see her again.

thats all for today guys. Peace!!!

ok guys, so i know this will sound totaly hipocritical, but whne i said i had my last cig, i lied. not on purpose, but it happened that way. i said that when i still had a pack left. well i called my friend over to give him the pack, and he talked me into smoking one last one. he said hed quit too if i smoked one. so i did. then i gave him my pack, and he said hes give it to his friend. so that was my last one. i figured out its be hard to quit if i still had a pack left, so i got rid of it. i hope you guys arent disopointed, but im done for real this time.

no i gota pack to go to visit my sister at her college.

Peace!

ok, so i think most of you guys have heard by now. i smoked my last cig 3 hours ago. im done. ill explain...

so me and Peter were talking. i was telling him how i hate smoking. he asked why i did it. i said its a bad habit. i dident want to tell him the truth. its a way for me to deal with stress. my past record is now bad for managing stress haha. well i really need to find a way to deal now. any sugestions?

peter told me he wanted me to stop. this is the first time somone in real life has told me this. i guess it just clicked. i dont want it to sound like i was ignoring you guys, but it just dident make sence back then. i dont think hes into me, which i dont care about. i mean friends with drunk benefits is ok with me =P but i told you guys id stop with telling you about drinking. just for the resord though, i havent smoked weed in a month, and i havent drank in longer. but thats the last time ill post about that stuff (i hope).

so its cool somone close to me cares like that. its gona be so hard though. i got into a reutine already. i come home, take my dog out, smoke, do homework. thats that way its been this year. im goan have to make a new rutiene. (trying different spellings in hopes ill spell it right once =P). also, my mom smokes, so when im at her house, i sit and talk with her when shes smoking.

i picked up this stress reliefe habit from her. its what she does, so i guess i copied. idk. i just hope im done.

Peace!

PS new hollywood crush Chord Overstreet from GLEE!

alos PS, in Waterpolo, the JV captin looks like Tom Daley but with more stubble, and a little shorter. love that kid =P

Hey. I know i said i wouldebt talk bout this, but i need to quit smokibg cigs. Peter told me he wanted me to... So im gona try. Ill need ur guys help though

hey guys, so wow its been some time. sorry about that. most days i havent had a computer, and the days i have had one, i pass out on my couch before i even start my computer.

last night i came home after water polo (ill explain later) and it was 8. i had such a bad migrain, i could do nothing but fall asleep, so i did. 8-5:30. great sleep haha. i think i had the migrain for a few reasons. 1)i hadent eaten all day 2)late nights doing homework 3)storm. u guys might not understand that one. im hyper sensitive to pressure changes, and a storm is a high pressure meating a low pressure system, so its like hell for me haha. to be honest, i dont even know how i got home. i was swerving because of the pain. it was the worste pain iv felt in a LONG time.

well water polo! my honors genetics teacher is also the coach for the water polo team. he said he still dident have a manager, and if anyone wanted to do it, to tlk to him after class, so i did. i need somthing to get involved because of the lack of extracuriculars. i figured itll help my socialize, help my college posabilities, and help me get to know the hot gus ;P and there are alot of them!

ok gtg.

Peace!!!

Hey guys, i feel so bad for not posting. Iv really wanted to but no computer. So just a quick one, i might be the team manager for our water polo team. PEACE!

Hey guys, i feel so bad for not posting. Iv really wanted to but no computer. So just a quick one, i might be the team manager for our water polo team. PEACE!

so, school sucks. its the reason i havent posted lately. i go to school, come home, nap, eat, then sleep. thank you school.

well im not going this friday (tomorroe) because i have to go to my grandmothers 75th. 5 hour drive with my mom, aunt, and my moms friend/uncles girlfriend. oh and my dog. hellow ipod and pillow, good by girls.

its not gona be fun, especialy sence i hate that side of the family. ill try and blog while im there. wish me luck!

Peace!

hey guys, dont have long cuz im at my dads. i cant answer the comments yet, but ill get to them =)

so yesterday i went over to my dads house. he told he about how one of his clients was turning 55 today, and wanted to know if i wanted to drive out there with him to drop a present off. i said sure because i had nothing better to do. so it probably like around 3.

well we go to get her a gift, and 2 hours later were finaly leaving for he and her husbands house. we get there and are greated by her. she's nice. i went to her 50th bday party, but that was the last time i saw her.

next thing i know, i little rugrat runs out. well this kids name is Skyler. he's only 15 months old. he's living with his grandmom while his mother and father get some things worked out. if you ask me, he should just stay with his grandparents because his parents arent good for him. his dads a drug dealer and his moms a crack head. but, his grandparents are the nices people in the world. there well off money wise compaired to alot of people, and they give there doughter money all the time because she says she's gona use it to find a job. well she dosent. she buys harsh drugs. and her parents love her to much not to give her money for what they think is helping her. its a crull circle.

anyway, while my dad and his clients talked, i played with Skyler. sence hes young, he cant really talk. he knows words, but no sentences. he also uses a little sighn language. hes really a cute kid. i ran around with him for almost 45 minuets.

then we left and i got a text from Emily. she wanted to know if i wanted to hang out that night. i said sure but i'd have to be a little later. so we met up at a coffee shop at 845. then we left there prety quickly to meat up with another friend to go bowling. we did that till 945 then went to some pizza place for my dinner. they dident eat so it was kinda awkward, but idc. then we left and i went home. well i was staying at my moms because its alot closer to the bowling place. i find out that my mom gave my room away to my cousin whos visiting with her mom, dad, and brother. i hate my moms side of the family so i wasent too pleased, but it was fine. stayed up late talking to my aunt. then i went to bed.

Peace!

"the insane run the asylum" whats this from? iv heard it in a nofx song but is it from somthin else?

so, you guys may have known i had the say off today. early labor day. haha and some may also know i was up real late last night. 2:30 in fact. well i got up today at 12:30. called my Uncle. he wanted me to drive down to his house later on. he lives near my school. he said he had to run some airens and he'd call me when i should head over. well my friend txtd me and wanted to jam today. yeah, im in a band. forgot ot tell you guys haha. its a ska band. only practiced once so far. well i packed my drum set up, headed over to his house, put it back together, and got another phone call from my uncle. i left my friends house, and left my drums with him. we'll practice again before the weekends over.

i got on the highway and was supriced to see so much traphic going into the city at 4. its because a cop pulled somone over and everyone has to see whats going on now a day. got to his house and was greated by my cousins. ones 4 and the others 9. the 4 year old is a boy, and the 9 year old is a girl. haha the boy likes hitting everyone, so i got a head but on my hands, which were covering somthing up =P his heads right there. so when he hugs me, i gota cover them up too haha. the girl just likes me to pick her up. my uncle is a really cool guy. probably 37 or somthing like that. hes a big guy in the gut region. he dips 24/7. he even swallows. its kinda nasty, but i love the guy to death. he also drinks alot. not like an alchoholic, but when he knows he dosent have to drive, and his kids are eather asleep, or close to it, he'll go through 6 beers. well when i got there, i played lego starwars on there wii. the 4 year old cant really play, so i used one of the remotes and helped him out.

after that, we got ready, and went to a grilled cheese place. it was great. i had some sort of crap grilled cheese. loved it haha.

then we headed over into the city. there was a free concert. i dident know anyone, but i watched the kids and talked to my uncle. some of his friends were there too. he knew id watch his kids and id drive them all home, so he had a few beers. no biggy. i dident mind. and he was still a great parent. the boy come over crying once and he took care of it.

the concert was alright. it was a blues band. the highlight was talking to my uncle though. he was talking about college with me. he said for every hour of class i have in college, i should spend 2 hours studying. makes sence to me. 3 hours of class a day, 3-6 hours studying, then partying till i pass out haha. he also said he dident care if i drank, he even dident care if i smoked a little weed, but he told me never to do crack or meth. haha i had herd that before. he always tells me that. he was as big of a pot head as my dad. i knew that. he wasent fooling me =P

after the show, i drove them home, and stayed for a little. we got home at 10, and i left there house at 11. he took the kids upstairs and gave them showers. then i said good night and helped get them to sleep.

after that i went to the basement with my uncle and talked about the town i live in. he grew up there too, so he told me some ghost stories about it and stuff.

oh, he is married, but his wife, my aunt, was on a trip for somones wedding.

that was my night haha.

Peace!

PS, anyone know of any movies like beutiful thing? like younger coming of age gay films? thanks!

so i wanted to watch a movie tonight, so i did! everyone watch "Beutiful Thing" its a movie about 2 guys and there coming of age. great movie. i have a thing for english axcents, so it was even better for me =P

also wanted to say somthing else. why is it that when everyone else is gona, a hoodie easily takes there place?

i have a hoodie that i havent worn in a few months. probably sence i went through that depression stage. i cant wear it in public. its not my style. its baby blue with navy stripes. just a simple hoodie. a few peices of cloth and a zipper. that hoodie quickly replaces people in my life. i dont think thats good. i mean im not depressed again, or atleast i hope not. im not cutting, dont worry. i was just in a sad mood from parts of that movie.

everyones asleep now. they all have school tomorrow. i dont. early labor day thing. i cant text anyone because they wont respond. and yet, im ok with that because of my hoodie.

i dont know what the point of that was, i just wanted to say it. maybe it'll mean somthing later. we'll see

Peace

hey guys! wow feels like an eternity sence last time i posted. sorry about that. school just wheres so much out of me i have to take a nap, then i get up, eat, do homework, and sleep some more haha.

well dinner with my mom was weird tonight. i was anoyed with school, and my moms lack of inteligence just pissed me off. she has a habit of asking really dumb questions. she asked who was in my classes. well she know no one from my school. oh well, haha i have to live with her. i should be used to it by now =P

ill talk about school now. im in a learning disability program at my school, and we have our own teachers for it. they help us stay on track mostly. well the 2013 teacher (yes, the teacher stays with us for 4 years) left at the end of last year, so theres a new guy. i met him my first day back to school. hes a great guy. he graduated from my school in 04. hes about 23 or somthin. i talked to him for half an hour after my first day. we talked about alot of philosophy.

we talked about my faith, or lack there of. he said he knows where im coming from. i think i big portion of my athiesim is that i was forced into catholisim by my parents. he realized the same thing and went through a phase of athiesim. he said the reason he now believes in God is the univers has order. he explained that each galixy is set up fairly simularly. out galaxy have order, hence our ability to live. well he says that every thing that has order has a purpose. take a clock for example. it has obvious order, and an obvious purpose. well with that purpose, there was a creator. that creator makes order, and has a purpose in mind for that object. he said that sence we as humans have order, we have a purpose, and a creator.

it got me thinking. i dont believe it all, but im definatly thinking about it.

on another note, my friend, Megan, is trying to set me up with a guy. he's a year younger than me, bi, and has had a boy friend before. apparently he's seen my picture and thinks im cute. that makes me happy =)

Peace!!!