Philosophies From A Kid

hey guys! so im about to invest in my first DSLR with my bday money! haha im pumped. as of now, i want a Nikon D40. i talked to a guy on craigslist and he hasent emaild me back. its about $300. anyone out there know about cameras? any input?

thanks!
Peace!!!

hey guys, just got back from retreat. i took a vow of confidenciality the first day, so ill limit what i say. we got there, ate dinner, then went to a small group and talked about stuff. i dident share too much. i told them im an athiest. there was another too. that was cool. we kinda worked together on debating.

then we slept. i got a headache so the first night was... well rough.

the next day we got up, went to a sequence of small and large groups. at about 4, we had a meeting in the chapple, and druing a prayer serimony, i senior leader got up and gave his take about being yourself. he told us hes gay. i odly felt very uncomfortable. i still dont know why. then after we had dinner, a priest from out school came and talked to us. he told us about how a few years ago, there was an obvious gay kid at my school, and he sat at lunch alone, walked to class alone, and basicaly had no friends because he was gay at an all guys school. he said he may have been the most brave guy at our school.

then he gave us a sheet of 10 questions. number 8 was "would you eat with a homosexual" refrencing that story. a few kids stood up and said it really dident matter, and they knew the senior was nice, kind, and they dident care. i started shaking. i almost stood up and came out. but i dident... i knew there were kids there who wouldent keep there vow and im not comfortable enought with my self to have everyone know. to be completly honest, im a little ashamed. please dont take affence anyone! thats not what i wanted. let me explain...

i know a few gay guys, and girls for that matter. i know there nice, and barely different from everyone else. i know there cooler than most people. i know i like them, and i know im one of them.

the thing is, most of the people in my life dont know any of that. they think all gay guys are girly, discusting, and should be hurt/killed. for that reason, im ashamed to tell them. i know alot of people would be fine with me, but the close people, wouldent...

oh well, thats whats been goin on. i probably forgot somthin or offended somone so ill have to make another post. hope you guys understand

PS i dont sighn things peace at school, and i went to my blog once last year, but i doubt they found it... idk

Peace!!!!!

Hey guys, just got letters from home. Its weird. My princible had me in a class last year, wrote me a letter(normal), but sighned it with "Peace" cuincident?

Hey guys, idk if ill be posting for a while. I have a school retreat from wed. To fri. So no computer... I may try to smuggle my phone in so i can update yall

hey guys, so ill start with last night. it was awsome. i got home, got ready, then my dad left to get my grandmother while i did a little work. then when they got home, we left for the city. we went to a really nice asian. we met my dads girlfriend there. we had pot stickers and seared salmon crisps or somthing like that. i ordered white truffle lobster mac and cheese for dinner. it was good. but the best part was desert, i had a peace of red velvet cake. the red velvet actually tasted like chocolate (the ones i have normaly dont) and the cream cheese icing was to die for. it was flavorful and light. amazing

after that we went to the theater and saw an awsome musical/play thing haha. id say which one it was but i feel like that could give away my location, so i hope you guys dont mind.

after that i got home and convinced my dad that sence today was my golden birthday (17 on the 17th) that i should get to stay home from school. he agreed after a bit of arguing haha.

then i got up this morning, and went to my moms house. i drove with all my windows down and it felt great! it was in the hight 60's today. that alone kept me happy until the sun went down. but when i got home, i saw my mom had presents for me to open. not much, but i never need much. a could pairs of cloths, and money when my mom gets her pay check haha

i went to my friends house to jam with him, and my mom txt'd me saying we were having a surprise birthday dinner for me and i had to get pick up my friend at 6 30. we went to a Japanese steak house. it was great.

but, i felt awkward the whole night. i had 3 friends there, and they all go to public schools. i dont. they know alot of the same people, i dont. it made me realize how much i hate catholic schools. then they talked about girls, i dident. they are all preppy, im not. i just dont fit in the way i used to. iv grown up, iv changed, things wont be like they were before. which is good and bad. i had fun then, and i have memories and knowledge now.

oh well, now i gota think/reminis haha

Peace!

Hey guys, so im goin to a show tonight with my grandmother, dad, and his gf cuz tomorrows my 17th bday! Haha post l8r
Peace!

so guys, im gona load some new pics here because Tman's right, not all of you have Tumblr's, or aleast ur not fallowing me hahaha

so nothing else knew has happened, so here ya go!

so you guys know my friend who went to jail? got released the next day. his mom found the money to bail him out. now hes on probation until the end of summer. and you know how i was woried hed get kicked out of school? he wasent, but now hes transphering to public school. today was his last day... depressed again

thats really all thats been goin on. ill let you guys know if anything else happens.

Peace!

so just found out one of my best friends from school just went to jail. 6 months as far as i know. he just got arrested today though so he hasent gone to court yet. he got picked up for "beaten the shit outa a kid who was pissen him off"

idk what to do. hes gona get kicked out of school, and his parents arent gona bail him out.

hello depression, we meet again...

but im fine, just dont think it was a good time to relapse...

Peace!

so guys, i dont know why but iv found a new interest with photography. ill post a preview of a few pictures here. i know the blogger world hates tumblr but i do have a tumblr if anyone likes these pics. let me know what you guys think?




BTW you will see a little cigar in these pictures. im smoking these cigars to "tame" my craving for cigs.