the c in christmas apparently stands for crying. everyone in my house is crying right now.
im sorry im so emotional right now... and a warning, im going to be brutaly blunt and honest. i dont want anyone reading this before they celibrate with there family. for you holly readers, pray for me... even if i dont believe in it, it cant hurt right?
we just got back from a party. it was fun until we left.
my mom claimes she had 2 glasses of wine. shes a light weight anyway, and i think it was more like 3-4. shes sluring and stumbling. i said mom, let me drive. she wont let me.
i get in the car, and my sister and i were pissed off the whole time. my sister drank there too, but was sober enough to realize im the obvious choise as a driver.
before we get home, my sister and i are teaming up on my mom, shouting things like why would u want to drive drunk? especialy when ur sons sober?!
not to mention i was affraid of crashing, on top of that i had so much anxiety from the fear of us getting pulled over. litteraly i had to grab the seat infront of me to let a little pressure out.
we get home and my sister mutters to me "another christmas, im crying, moms crying, and dads not here"
now im crying...
corection, now im gona go smoke (cigar not weed) my feelings away and hope tomorrows a little better.
Peace!
am merry fuckin christmas...
And So It Goes (2014)
9 years ago
2 comments:
Oh Spys...
I'm so sorry this is how your Christmas is starting. God, man, I wish I could be there to just drive you home. This is not good, but please take solace in knowing that you are now safe at home.
Spys, I'm throwing an arm over your shoulder. You need it. Cry on my shoulder. It's here for you. I wish I could do more.
This not how it should be. So please try to let it out with us here - you know I'm here for you, we're all here for you.
Smoke a cigar. At this point, even I won't give you shit about it. God, I wish I could do more than commiserate with you. And offer the virtual shoulder.
You deserve better, you're a kid. Christmas should be a happy holiday, not one fraught with family drama. I'm so sorry. You know how to reach me if you want to vent more. I absorb it well. So please feel free. Please let it all out constructively.
Peace <3
Jay
I hope you got my email, Peter... I'm sorry that the night was such a disaster, but, I want you to be strong, and to understand that you are on the right path, trying to move foward with your life, in a honest and mature way. I believe in you, so, don't let me down. You will see that the drama of tonight will quiet and that things will look better as the weekend moves on.
And, you know, this scenario that you describe is probably being repeated in various places as we speak... There is no monopoly on adult stupidity, so, you shouldn't feel alone- it's a crappy situation that never should have happened, but, it did... I'll pray for your safety and for the peace and joy that is the true message of a loving God, and that it finds it's way into your family and heals the pain that you feel tonight... I'll keep checking as often as I can, to make sure you're OK... Hang in there, kid! Everything will be OK... love, U.T.<3
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