ok, so i got home and my mom left me a message that she wouldent be home till 9. i figured it was cinco de myo so id celibrate by smoking some weed. it was a good time. then Andrew and some other kids came over just to talk. they noticed but they were cool. then they left to get Andrew some snuss and black and milds. he is going to a party and said hed bring that stuff. we talked about it and im conviced he be cool with it and i explained all of his questions. he now knows its stuff and he'll be fine.
then he cam home and we had a snuss to finish the long day haha. no im home and about to go to bed =) Peace!!!
And So It Goes (2014)
9 years ago
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So, a little while ago, you're mad at life in general, so, I can see how this would make everything just perfect!! hmmm... Well, kid, you really have a lot to learn/unlearn about life... I won't lie, I'm quite disappointed... luv, tman
hey Tman, i know i still have alot to learn, and i always will, but why are you disappointed? because i smoked weed? you already knew that. and if you think it was to calm me down, or make me feel happy because of the whole hating the world thing, you wrong. yes, it did calm me down and make me feel happy, but it wasent because of the world, or to get a way from the world. Peace!
I'm disappointed because I believe that drugs make the problems that we face daily seem to temporarily go away, when, in reality, they fester and get harder to resolve... When you dance with the 'dragon', your life becomes illusion, and you cripple your ability to move foward, which all of us must do, to compete in a difficult world, and to achieve the happiness that is waiting for us, but must be worked at... Yes, I knew that you smoked weed, but that doesn't mean that I buy into the reasons; I already know the potential results- I've dealt with this issue in kids that I mentored in the past, and, it was only when they understood the subtle, but crippling effects of drug use, that they turned the corner, and became the happy kids that they deserved to be...
I'll never forget one incident, in particular, where a young guy that I mentored (16, by the way) was riding with me in my truck, between a jobsite and a lumberyard... At that point, he had worked for me for 4 months, and I had taken him into my employ at the strong suggestion of an attorney friend of mine, who had represented this kid in a court case that started with pot and ended with an inadvertent injury to a young girl... The boy had no idea that I knew about his problems or drug use, but, I did, and because I had been successful in the past, helping kids, my friend kind of beat me over the head with this boy's dilemma, and guilted me into trying to help...
But, 4 months after taking this kid under my wing, and talking to him about life, and things, but really, just listening, and making him feel like he mattered, I heard him laugh for the 1st time... It was startling!! He started to laugh after I cracked an inappropriate joke, aimed at myself, and out of sheer frustration, but, he saw the humor, and was laughing so hard, I thought he would pee his pants!! That day, he turned a corner, and we bonded like father/son or uncle/ nephew, you pick, and the rest is history... After working for me for 2 years, he headed off to college, and would return to work for me during trimester breaks and during the summer for the next 5 years... He blossomed into a wonderful, drug-free kid over time, and although he achieved a degree in surveying, and worked as one for years, he returned to carpentry, and is now a contractor, working in Colorado... I saw him 6 months ago, and he thanked me for my efforts to help him in his life, and, I think I smiled for the next month!!
I truly believe tho, that, without losing the drugs, his chances at happiness were much further away and getting further from his grasp, daily... So, my disappointment, kid, is sadness, really... I wish I could take you under my wing, like I did with other kids, and hug you and tell you that everything will be all right... You need more love in your life, that's obvious, but, you won't find it with the 'dragon'.... luv, tman<3
tman, i hear you, and you have no idea how much i appreciate you concern. im glad you helped that one kid, but honistaly, i dont want to be helped. look, im not getting addicted to anything, and its really not hurting me. i know the cost if i get caught, and my parents dont seem to care. im glad you care for me, i really am. i dont know if i need more love, but ill gladly take it =) Peace!!!
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