ok, so i dont know why every blogger decided to post Easter things today, a week before Easter, but i figured i'd do the same. (thanks for the idea Tman)
ok, so Easter has always been a tough time in my family, any holiday for that matter. my sister and i always knew my parents were getting a devorce somday, and around Easter, all the tension from work and the family came out. it really wasent that fun of a time. i dont remember most of the holidays except Christmas because all the other ones involved alot of screaming, and i try to forget that. well i only remember one Easter. its sad so if your in a good mood, dont read.
well i remember my mom and dad fighting all night. never physicaly, but my dad is the kind of person who can make words hurt more. well they were fighting about somthing. i really dident care. i was probably 11 or 12. i got late really quick. in the midst of there argument, and forgetment to decorate for Easter, both my parents start yelling at me to get in bed. for me, i dont like being yelled at when i did nothing wrong, but i understood that they were only yelling at me because they were yelling at eachother.
so i remind my mom about the only really tradition (besides Easter baskets) that we had, and Easter egg hunt. she remembers stomps down stairs, and grabs th baskets. while doing this, she starts crying and still yelling. this left a sight in my brain... i still remember her hiding the eggs right infront of me while screaming at me to go to bed, screaming at my dad for being an ass hole, and trying to prepair for the holidays. that really all i remember that Easter. what a great family memory right? haha. oh well. i still turned out fine =)
Peace!!!
And So It Goes (2014)
9 years ago
6 comments:
AWW kid, I wish I could hold you close and hug you like you need right now...
My Easter story is the nice version of what happened at holiday times at our house... We had similar versions that you describe, where the kids all gathered in my room, trembling with fear, as the fight raged around us, and Mom wailed like a wounded animal (she was the aggressor, by the way), tearing our young hearts out... I won't go further today, it really is too sad...
No kid should have to be exposed to these things- physical or emotional abuse has a real legacy.... It undermines SO much, in a young person's life, and is one of the most selfish, uncaring things, that a parent can engage in... But, even parents are human and imperfect, and I have learned to forgive my parents and try not to let their problems affect the way that I deal with life... It is difficult tho!! The best thing you can do, kid, is to decide that your life will be happy and lived in a different way than the example set by your parents, and try to move past it all!! Siblings can be of great value here; after all, they have lived through the same traumas... Talking about it does help, but at some point, you will need to put it behind you, so that it doesn't continue to eat at you... and, it will, if you let it!! I have sisters that can attest to that!! I am fortunate, and really blessed, I guess, to have my faith... It asks, in fact, demands, that I forgive these affronts in my life, and I'll tell you, it is liberating to put these horrors behind you, so that you can move on!!
Still, I wish that I could give you a big hug... I know it would help!! Well, have a good day, young guy- the countdown begins... I can't wait to hear about your home building work!! I'm psyched!! luv, tman<3
Tman, thanks for that. i know it sounds weird but seeing somone type that actoualy helps. makes me feel beter =)
and i do forgive my parents, but its still there. im not holding it against them, but writing (or typing) it down help me. every Christmas i talk to my sister about our prents around holidays. its better now that there devorced and never see eachother on holidays haha.
haha im prety pumped too. little scared, but oh well. it'll be fun. Peace!!!
don't be scared... it's normal to be anxious, doing something new, but, you're going to change someone's life... I really mean that, and it'll be something that you'll remember your whole life!! I wish I was going with you!!! Well, it's off to watch the woman's basketball tournament- big UCONN fan here!! So, have a great Sunday... don't spend it all at the keyboard!! luv, tman<3<3
haha thanks Tman, Good Luck! Peace!
Hi there, Spys
I didn't get a chance to respond to this yesterday. I'm really sorry for you that you had to experience this, and no doubt a whole lot more.
*hugs* to you, and to tman too.
Writing about their lives seems to help a lot of people here in blog-land; "a trouble shared is a trouble halved", as the saying goes.
I'm looking forward to hearing about your house-building adventure!
Take care
Mark
thanks Mark!!! =) glad i got hugs haha Peace!
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