ok, so i got up this morning, mom dident do laundry last night so i had to wear an old shirt. it had a stain on the pocket, and i dident realize it until i was at school... fml
go to school, piss tired cuz i woke up an extra hour early, damn day light savings time. boared until lunch. you guys need some more background info.
so im not a jock or tool, i used to be but when i stoped playing lacrosse, it all stoped. so now im just a kid not too many people know well enough to judge who i really am. most people judge me as a fat, lazy, pothead, dumbass. im not! am i fat? kinda... am i lazy? to an extent, but most people are. am i a pothead? no! that ticks me off so much. when i was in 8th grade i was told by a close friend that people have been saying that i was an alchoholic and i came to school drunk every day, which is why i was so "jolly". i've never drank at school, and never plan to. i only smoked weed a couple of times. (i said the stuff bout alchoholic because it pissed me off and was in the same area [kinda]) and am i a dumbass? fuck no. i have a 4.0... so fuck off.
ok sorry that was my rant for the day =) back to my point, im not a jock/tool. well i got to my lunch table with acouple of kids i know, but not too well. me and 3 of my friends invaded there table and they dident mind. well today, another teacher gave his class a free period so they were all in the cafateria. i sit down, and next thing i know, Tool central! and not just tools, uber-tool-douchbags! they took all of the chairs up except mine, and 3 of the other kids i dont really know whos table it originaly was.
my "friend" ditch me and go to another table full of people i dont know. i stayed at that lunch table because i was already there, and i dident want to look like a freek moving in the middle of lunch. well i finish lunch fast, go to through my tray away, drink in hand cuz i was gona finish it and throw it away then sit back down, and one of the bigest douches ever (whos in my chem class) moves over to my seat (DICK!) well i can take a hint, there like that and i knew that. so i left and went to hang out with a cooler teacher who i knew had a free period. i just did homework in his classroom. he dident care.
ok, ok, that was the end of my rant =)
after that not much happened. im gona go play the drums now. peace! (comment <3!)
And So It Goes (2014)
9 years ago
6 comments:
well, kid, I already left a long comment on the last post, so this will be short... It sounds like a tough day to me... there's nothing nice about being judged or alone at any age... It sounds like a few mistakes have given some kids the ammo to treat you poorly... You're at an age where everyone has an opinion about everyone else and much of it can be cruel and stupid stuff... I was a skinny kid, but tall and with bad skin, at your age... I was very self conscious, and that 'weakness' was enough to bring the wolves down on me here and there... I decided in 9th grade, that I'd had enough, and started studying martial arts, which got out pretty quickly, and started to be more friendly to the kids in my classes that seemed lonely or quiet, jocks included...
I noticed that I was starting to feel more confidence, and that seemed to draw some nice people to my side, as time went on... I also joined the symphonic band, then orchestra, the school paper, the school yearbook, and as my skill improved, the tennis team and French club... French Club... lol I can't even remember what we did in the club, except talk and speak broken French...lol But, that wasn't the point... Soon, I was walking down the hall, between class, saying HI to people that I had previously ignored, and vice/versa...
When you make yourself part of things, people will forgive your mistakes and you will find that many are really on your side... they're just afraid to stick their necks out for you now. There will always be the 'dicks'; they exist in adult life too! Everybody figures them out eventually, and they become the lonely ones in later years- ironic, no??
So, start your work now!! Nobody likes to be picked on or be alone!! You play drums, right?? Join the school band, or if it's too late for that this year, start a garage band... Talk to the kids that seem quiet, but interesting... Still waters run deep... Some really nice people are quiet and insecure at your age... help them out!! help yourself out!! You have plenty to share... shelve the booze/pot thing and get on with your life!! It's ALL waiting for you!! luv, Tman<3 hugs2
thanks tman, how do you get so good at advice? haha idk about shelving anything but ill deffinatly try to be more open. and btw, when i say comment, i know you have a life too, and i really appreciate the long comments, but i would appreciate the small one too =) Peace!!!
Sorry, kid... I ramble sometimes, usually when I'm tired... lol luv,tman<3
haha hey im fine with your rambles! im just saying, if your notm i wouldent be mad or anything =) Peace!
hey, kid... did you change the setup on your blog (you know-colors,etc.), or am I hallucinating, or something??? luv, tman<3
haha yup, sorry i dident give any warning. im still playing around with it and seeing how i like it so it may still change, but hey, you could be hallucinating at the same time haha
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