just failed my test... bummer

Im sitll here!

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hey guys, im still alive! sorry its been so long! iv just been getting migrains again and when im not with my friends im asleep haha. the girl i talked about before asked me out... told her i was grounded. ill cover that later. i kinda gota go now, but wish me luck on my drivers test tomorrow!!!!!!

Peace!!!
hey guys, sorry its been a while. iv been working. when i blog next, i have alot to talk about (concert, philosophies, ect.) hope to post soon.
Peace

Off Early

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hey guys, i got off work early today. there were no cars trying to get into my lot, so i told the dispatcher and she said we could all just come in. yay me!

sorry its been so long. for some reason i've been really tired lately and the last thing i wana do is get on the computer. i just like vegin out on the couch and watchen TV.

i have my 2nd theropy appointment today. im excited and scared at the same time. i hope to tell him im gay. idk if i want to, but itd probably be better to get it out into the open early.

im going to a concert tomorrow with Peter, and after we might go to a party at Patricks place. its gona be an amazing day. im so pumped.

so nothing has really happened in my life. it just boaring.

i think all and all lifes goin prety good. i dont want summer to end though!!!

oh, im getting my drivers licens in less than a week!!! that is if i pass haha.

ok, im gona go now. i think i exceeded the 20 minuet rule for library computers.

Peace!!!!!

Cutting

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no, i havent started again. im not telling my therapist unless it becomes an issue again. i understand you guys think i should, but its not somthing i like to talk about, and i know he'd focus on that, and maybe tell my parents.

if you guys have any questions i havent answered, please feel free to leave a comment or even email me.

Peace

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TMAN!!!!!!!! LOVE YOU U.T.!!!!!

Girl problems

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ok, so this girl i work with, i think i mentioned her in the last post, who is my bosses doughter, likes me. she was talking to my sister and saying things like
"my parents wont let me date anyone more than 2 years older than me, but i think theyd be ok with your brother" (she thought i was 17)

or

"i think if a friend asked me out, i'd say yes"

and she texted me after work and asked if i was working tomorrow. i said no, and she said i should text her if im board tomorrow.

FML!!!

if she askes me out, and i say no, her dad (my BOSS) would hate me. and things at work would be awkward as hell.

if i say yes, im just playing her, id feel bad, id be a bad influence, and her dad could still hate me.



ill just try to ignore her until school starts back up and then im home free. i think she will work at this job again next year, but im hoping ill find another job.


oh yeah, im a parking attendent. i dont think i ever told you guys that haha

Peace!

im here!

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ok, so im still here! haha sorry its been so long. so i think im finaly close to catching up on all of my sleep. im not gona make this too long of a post, i wana make sure i have things to catch you up on later. so yes, this will catch you guys up some, but not close to all the way.

so the night i snuck out. what can i say? im a kid. haha its almost my nature. and technocaly, i dident sneek out. i told my mom i might go see Sara when she gets back from the concert she was going to. and when i got home from Emily's, my mom was already asleep.

oh! Emily's! so i was put putting with Emily and a girl named Beth. i've always been a family friend of Beth. well when we finished put put, we went to a coffee shop. thats when both Emily and i had to tell her our secrets. Emily's is that shes not a virgin, and mine is that im gay. i couldent tell her myself, so i asked Emily to say it for me. she reacted normaly. she said shes fine with it. no biggy. well, later i learned that Beth had a crush on me. AWKWARD! haha

yeah, apparently im flirty with every girl? like my sister informed me im flirting with my bosses doughter? ok, so im prety sure i have social issues, because i dont even know how to flirt. im just messin around with her, like teasing her and stuff. never knew that was flirting.

ok so back to the story! got home, and walked a mile at 12:30 (curfew is like 12 or 11). i got there, passing like 3 parties, and it was only Sara and another girl, Jess. Jess just got dumped, and was being really bitchey. we were waiting outside for 20 minuets for Patrick and some of his friends. they actoualy walked to another county in search for one of there friends who was walking down to us. never saw them, so we went into Jess' house. then her mom walkes down, staired at me for a good 15 secounds, waves, and walkes back upstairs. again, AWKWARD! hahaha then Jess' dad texted her and told her i had 5 minuets to get out of his house... it was raining outside. i walked a mile home, in the rain, and sketched out because i got a text saying Patrick was picked up by the cops. i got home safe, and Patrick got a free ride home, and had to wake his parents up so they could talk to the cop. he dident really get in any trouble though. he texted me the next day. i asked if he was in trouble. he said he might be grounded, but then he's just sneek out some more... so... yeah.

well that was the sneek out story.

works goin well. it sucks, but atleast im gettin paid. ok, im gona get off the comp now.

Peace!!! ill answer emails eather right now, or later haha. oh and one more thing. i think im haning out with Peter tonight.
hey guys! i am alive. im sorry for not posting, iv just been pooped. i promis ill post soon. thanks for the pasience!