Christmas day is so much better. Thanks for the support guys! MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Peace!
And So It Goes (2014)
9 years ago
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the c in christmas apparently stands for crying. everyone in my house is crying right now.
im sorry im so emotional right now... and a warning, im going to be brutaly blunt and honest. i dont want anyone reading this before they celibrate with there family. for you holly readers, pray for me... even if i dont believe in it, it cant hurt right?
we just got back from a party. it was fun until we left.
my mom claimes she had 2 glasses of wine. shes a light weight anyway, and i think it was more like 3-4. shes sluring and stumbling. i said mom, let me drive. she wont let me.
i get in the car, and my sister and i were pissed off the whole time. my sister drank there too, but was sober enough to realize im the obvious choise as a driver.
before we get home, my sister and i are teaming up on my mom, shouting things like why would u want to drive drunk? especialy when ur sons sober?!
not to mention i was affraid of crashing, on top of that i had so much anxiety from the fear of us getting pulled over. litteraly i had to grab the seat infront of me to let a little pressure out.
we get home and my sister mutters to me "another christmas, im crying, moms crying, and dads not here"
now im crying...
corection, now im gona go smoke (cigar not weed) my feelings away and hope tomorrows a little better.
Peace!
am merry fuckin christmas...
im sorry im so emotional right now... and a warning, im going to be brutaly blunt and honest. i dont want anyone reading this before they celibrate with there family. for you holly readers, pray for me... even if i dont believe in it, it cant hurt right?
we just got back from a party. it was fun until we left.
my mom claimes she had 2 glasses of wine. shes a light weight anyway, and i think it was more like 3-4. shes sluring and stumbling. i said mom, let me drive. she wont let me.
i get in the car, and my sister and i were pissed off the whole time. my sister drank there too, but was sober enough to realize im the obvious choise as a driver.
before we get home, my sister and i are teaming up on my mom, shouting things like why would u want to drive drunk? especialy when ur sons sober?!
not to mention i was affraid of crashing, on top of that i had so much anxiety from the fear of us getting pulled over. litteraly i had to grab the seat infront of me to let a little pressure out.
we get home and my sister mutters to me "another christmas, im crying, moms crying, and dads not here"
now im crying...
corection, now im gona go smoke (cigar not weed) my feelings away and hope tomorrows a little better.
Peace!
am merry fuckin christmas...
so... today is christmas eve day? somthing like that haha. well i got up, went to the mall, and quickly got Megan a scarf. she got me somthing so i figured id get her somthing too haha. now im home and relaxing before tonight. were going to a party. story time!
so during my 6th and 7th grade summer, my mom, sister, and i took a trip with my moms best friend and her 3 kids. 2 girls (twins) and 1 son, gay. nothing ever happened, and i dident even know i was gay back then.
so now, i havent seen him in 4 years. should be interesting haha
now for my xmas rant.
i dont understand christmas. i mean i understand the theory, but not the practice. if people believe in the biblical stories, then they should know christ wasent born in december. if they dont believe in the biblical stories, then why are they celebrating christmas?
the reason it got to be on the date it courently is, is because of a few reasons:
pegan holiday (easier to convert if holidays match up)
brings light into one of the darkest times of the year
im sure there are more reasons, but thats all i know of haha
and gifts for each other? as far as i know, the only symbalism that could come from that is the magi?
idk... just seems funky to celebrate somones birthday on a day that they almost definatly werent born on...
but i still love the holiday! or atleast what its become in todays society
hop ethis dosent make anyone mad, just tryen to get people thinking. thats everyone for reading!!! and i wish you guys, and your families, a very merry christmas!!! (or Quanza/Honica!!!)
PS sorry for the spelling slaughters haha
Peace!!!!!
so during my 6th and 7th grade summer, my mom, sister, and i took a trip with my moms best friend and her 3 kids. 2 girls (twins) and 1 son, gay. nothing ever happened, and i dident even know i was gay back then.
so now, i havent seen him in 4 years. should be interesting haha
now for my xmas rant.
i dont understand christmas. i mean i understand the theory, but not the practice. if people believe in the biblical stories, then they should know christ wasent born in december. if they dont believe in the biblical stories, then why are they celebrating christmas?
the reason it got to be on the date it courently is, is because of a few reasons:
pegan holiday (easier to convert if holidays match up)
brings light into one of the darkest times of the year
im sure there are more reasons, but thats all i know of haha
and gifts for each other? as far as i know, the only symbalism that could come from that is the magi?
idk... just seems funky to celebrate somones birthday on a day that they almost definatly werent born on...
but i still love the holiday! or atleast what its become in todays society
hop ethis dosent make anyone mad, just tryen to get people thinking. thats everyone for reading!!! and i wish you guys, and your families, a very merry christmas!!! (or Quanza/Honica!!!)
PS sorry for the spelling slaughters haha
Peace!!!!!
so i should post, but i really dont have anything to say...
i need to go xmas shopping for my sis still.
tomorrow im going roller skating with my aunt and 2 cousins.
im going to dinner with my grandmother tonight.
for anyone who likes hip-hop, check out Chris Webby! idk if anyone here does, but hes great. hes the better Sam Adams.
um... yeah... sorry thats it! im sure my life will get way more exciting in a couple of days. my sister might take me to get my ears pierced just to piss off my mom. its kinda a joke though. like its not mean spirited. she just hates me talking about wanting to get a piercing. i figure ear would be a good place because it heals very well/fast.
alrighty.
oh im pissed! you may remember me talking about the show skins? well if you dont know, its coming to America, but the gay character, Maxxie, is going to be a lesbian! WTF?!?!?
ok
Peace!
i need to go xmas shopping for my sis still.
tomorrow im going roller skating with my aunt and 2 cousins.
im going to dinner with my grandmother tonight.
for anyone who likes hip-hop, check out Chris Webby! idk if anyone here does, but hes great. hes the better Sam Adams.
um... yeah... sorry thats it! im sure my life will get way more exciting in a couple of days. my sister might take me to get my ears pierced just to piss off my mom. its kinda a joke though. like its not mean spirited. she just hates me talking about wanting to get a piercing. i figure ear would be a good place because it heals very well/fast.
alrighty.
oh im pissed! you may remember me talking about the show skins? well if you dont know, its coming to America, but the gay character, Maxxie, is going to be a lesbian! WTF?!?!?
ok
Peace!
im flipping out over my computer. i still have 2 months of warenty left if need be, but i wana fix the peace of shit... i dont think thats the right peace. are there 2 peaces?
anyway, i keep getting the BSOD with different STOP codes... makes no sence. i have my recovery disc's too, but cant even get to a point where id be able to boot them. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
now my dads gf is comin over to make us some crab dip, maranara, and "we can make cookies, and snuggle" ELF
idk what to think about that.
oh last night! wtf... so my friend and i went to pick up a 12 pack, and on our way there, we almost died. well not really but whatev. my friend goes "they dont trap here, speed up" so now im going 40 on a 15 turn, hit a patch of ice, spun purpindicular to the road, then headed for a sigh, quick right, carlength away from a car at a stop sighn, then i finaly hit pavment, and stoped. holy shit my hearts still racing today hahaha. i learned my leason, or acouple of them. dont speed, dont speed in the winter, dont speed around turns, dont listen to your idiot friends haha
then we get home, and Peter comes over. we had a good time hangin out. dicked around until like 2. then we start calling people. somhow we get from calling 2 girls, to calling a guy we all know but havent seen in atleast 2 year, well turns out this guy is sleeping at a kids house thats a 4 minuet drive away. there like lets go, your driving. i was like wait, its not happening. my cars in the garage and my mom sleeps right under the garage. its not happenin. they put up a fit and i was like no. well both these guys know i have anxiety and they were like if it was at one of our houses you know youd be down, which is true, but i still said no. then they decided they were going to jog over to the 2 girls, which is a 15 minuet car ride. its now like 330. i was like you guys have fun, im goin to bed, so i did haha
they left and were back at 4. that was my night. no turtle =( once i can legaly drive people i told them were getin a fricken turtle.
so the theropist... i dont like telling straight guys im gay... it just never seemed like a good idea. but now i wana tell him, but i hate the steriotypes that go along with it. he'll get the wrong idea about me. he'll think im in an all guys school because im a perv. look id rather go to a public school, but my parents wont let me. idk... hopefully it'll come out at some point.
alright, that was long haha im energetic for some reason. wish me luck with my dumb computer =P
Peace!!!
anyway, i keep getting the BSOD with different STOP codes... makes no sence. i have my recovery disc's too, but cant even get to a point where id be able to boot them. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
now my dads gf is comin over to make us some crab dip, maranara, and "we can make cookies, and snuggle" ELF
idk what to think about that.
oh last night! wtf... so my friend and i went to pick up a 12 pack, and on our way there, we almost died. well not really but whatev. my friend goes "they dont trap here, speed up" so now im going 40 on a 15 turn, hit a patch of ice, spun purpindicular to the road, then headed for a sigh, quick right, carlength away from a car at a stop sighn, then i finaly hit pavment, and stoped. holy shit my hearts still racing today hahaha. i learned my leason, or acouple of them. dont speed, dont speed in the winter, dont speed around turns, dont listen to your idiot friends haha
then we get home, and Peter comes over. we had a good time hangin out. dicked around until like 2. then we start calling people. somhow we get from calling 2 girls, to calling a guy we all know but havent seen in atleast 2 year, well turns out this guy is sleeping at a kids house thats a 4 minuet drive away. there like lets go, your driving. i was like wait, its not happening. my cars in the garage and my mom sleeps right under the garage. its not happenin. they put up a fit and i was like no. well both these guys know i have anxiety and they were like if it was at one of our houses you know youd be down, which is true, but i still said no. then they decided they were going to jog over to the 2 girls, which is a 15 minuet car ride. its now like 330. i was like you guys have fun, im goin to bed, so i did haha
they left and were back at 4. that was my night. no turtle =( once i can legaly drive people i told them were getin a fricken turtle.
so the theropist... i dont like telling straight guys im gay... it just never seemed like a good idea. but now i wana tell him, but i hate the steriotypes that go along with it. he'll get the wrong idea about me. he'll think im in an all guys school because im a perv. look id rather go to a public school, but my parents wont let me. idk... hopefully it'll come out at some point.
alright, that was long haha im energetic for some reason. wish me luck with my dumb computer =P
Peace!!!
i hate my computer! haha im having the worst time trying to fix it. i got the blue screen of death everytime i turn it on. its so frusterating! haha oh well it just a regestry error so i may be able to fix it, it will just take alot of time. plz be patient until i get back. ill try and blog from other computers and my phone, if its not being stupid haha.
so exams sucked! i mean i breezed through english, us history, and algebra 2, but bombed genetics, religion, and buisness/finance.
so now im on break! and my sisters coming home tonight! and im going on an adventure with my friends that may result in me gettin a pet turtle haha. dont ask =P
still havent told my theropist im gay... he was asking if i had a girlfriend and i was like nope. he was like im sure there girls at thoes bonfires you go to. i was like yup but there taken. then time was up. i think hes gona ask about it next time, and i might tell him. i mean i want to tell him, but im always overly cautious about telling guys. we'll see
Peace!
so exams sucked! i mean i breezed through english, us history, and algebra 2, but bombed genetics, religion, and buisness/finance.
so now im on break! and my sisters coming home tonight! and im going on an adventure with my friends that may result in me gettin a pet turtle haha. dont ask =P
still havent told my theropist im gay... he was asking if i had a girlfriend and i was like nope. he was like im sure there girls at thoes bonfires you go to. i was like yup but there taken. then time was up. i think hes gona ask about it next time, and i might tell him. i mean i want to tell him, but im always overly cautious about telling guys. we'll see
Peace!
geeze, my week haha. its been a while. iv been so buissy with everything from prepairing for midterms, to managing my swim team. yeah i dont think i told u guys, im gona manage my swim team and rugby team too.
so bonfire last night. that was fun haha. i went and picked garry up from work. then we drove around trying to find somone to get alchohol from. then we parked, and like 20 minuets later, a younger couple parked next to us, so Garry asked if theyd get us some stuff and they said yes. so then we drove to a gas station to stock up on cigars. then i left my car there and got into one of our friends cars. then we headed over to a pig slaughtering house cuz they have old wood behind it so we stocked up and then went to the kids dads house and got the fire pit. headed back to the kids moms house droped everything off, and he drove me back to my car. then i fallowed him to his moms house where we started the fire.
i told my mom i was spending the night this time because i never could before. she said ok, be good, and make good choices. i dident haha not gona lie, or sugar coat it. i know this will make people disapointed, but its what happened. i took a shot as a warm up, and only had like 2 more shots throughout the night. barely tipsy. i dont like getting too hammared to the point where i dont know whats happening, so i dident let my self even get close to it.
only 2 girls puked this time so not too bad haha. we woke up, and i took Garry to breakfast then to his work.
now im home haha.
Peace!
so bonfire last night. that was fun haha. i went and picked garry up from work. then we drove around trying to find somone to get alchohol from. then we parked, and like 20 minuets later, a younger couple parked next to us, so Garry asked if theyd get us some stuff and they said yes. so then we drove to a gas station to stock up on cigars. then i left my car there and got into one of our friends cars. then we headed over to a pig slaughtering house cuz they have old wood behind it so we stocked up and then went to the kids dads house and got the fire pit. headed back to the kids moms house droped everything off, and he drove me back to my car. then i fallowed him to his moms house where we started the fire.
i told my mom i was spending the night this time because i never could before. she said ok, be good, and make good choices. i dident haha not gona lie, or sugar coat it. i know this will make people disapointed, but its what happened. i took a shot as a warm up, and only had like 2 more shots throughout the night. barely tipsy. i dont like getting too hammared to the point where i dont know whats happening, so i dident let my self even get close to it.
only 2 girls puked this time so not too bad haha. we woke up, and i took Garry to breakfast then to his work.
now im home haha.
Peace!
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