ok, so i told you guys i was going to the carnival with Daniel and Emily. well i showed up a half an hour early because Emily works right across the street form the carnival, so i went and hung out with her until she got to leave. we talked. it was nice. i hadent seen her in a year. she has really changed. haha i like the new her.
after she got off of work, we walked over to the carnival and met Daniel. it wasent that awkward at first. we rode a few rides, but then we rand out of money haha so at 8 we walked down to a coffee shop where one of Emily's friends was working and just chilled. while Daniel was in the bathroom, Emily told me some stuff that i shouldent say on here, but lets just say she lost her v card =) haha i was excited for her. it was with her ex, who i think she is still in love with, but idk. Daniel came back and told me to go see what he wrote in the bathroom. btw the bathroom in this coffee shop if a chalkboard so its really cool. i walked in and was the name Emily and a penis next to it. i just laughed. then took a pic. then wrote on the wall myself, but i just wrote SKA. i walk out and see Daniel holding Emily's hand. he saw that i was back and put his hand in his pocket.
i showed Emily the pic and she got pissed. then Daniel leaves to go erase it, and Emily tells me what just happened. Daniel told her he loved her, and Emily said she dident love him.
we walked back to the carnival and it was awkward as anything. we just walked around and found a quiet place to sit and talk. Daniel wasent talking to Emily so it was a little weird. i gave them like 10 minuets to talk and just walked around. i get back and Emily texts me and said he tried to kiss her. she dident let him.
so i sit down and Daniel tries to cuddle with Emily, which she is letting him do in hopes he'll talk to her if she lets him. then he touches her boob. Emily freaked out. then Daniels parents picked him up, and i talked to Emily. she was crying. i hugged her, but i suck at comforting people.
anyway, my mom then showed up and i left. her mom came right after mine. we were texting for a while that night. she felt weird that somone touched her without asking. and she sure as hell dident want him to. she couldent stop crying, so i shared with her somthing that no one knows, not even you guys.
well i told you guys about Peter, and i think i told you how i gave him a bj, and he gave me one like a week later... well what i dident tell you is when he gave me one, i was passed out, and woke up to him sucking my dick. i told him to get off and he dident. i punched him a few times and he finally got off. yes, we had both been drinking. thats why i havent drank sense.
i though that would make her feel less alone. i dont think it actually helped though. idk...
Peace
And So It Goes (2014)
9 years ago
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Well kid, your life experiences will eventually open your eyes to the reality of mind altering stuff... Why do you think I seem obsessed with this?? My grandfather (my dad's dad) destroyed himself with booze... He got so bad, that he eventually wasn't working enough, Grandma had to support the family, which destroyed his self esteem, which led to more drinking, till he couldn't afford the 'good' stuff anymore and actually drank isopropyl alcohol to scratch the itch... He was a good, hard working man, till he became addicted... His son, (my uncle) started on the same path (genetic addiction, anyone?) and it almost killed him... he ended up seeing the light at age 50, after battling the dragon for his whole adult life... Mind altering stuff, is just that, mind altering... It is devious and it is anything but innocent fun, especially if you have that predisposition in your own family...
I'll bet that you NEVER checked the links (the real science) that I sent you... I'm really just wasting my time... You can shrug it off as innocent fun, but, any outsider can see the dangers that you're inviting
into your life... It's like watching a train wreck, in slow motion. I don't know what else to say... No wonder I'm the only one that comments on this... luv, tman<3
by the way, Daniel is a total dick... my advice- dump him!!
Peter's problem is directly related to your drinking... What can I say?? Children and booze- a match made in hell... tman
hey Tman, no need to get nasty. look why do you think i stoped drinking?! because i know i dont like it all that much. and because i dont like my self drunk. now im not saying ill never drink again, but i've stoped for now and havent drank in almost 6 months. what do you mean no wonder your the only one who comments on here?
and i know about Daniel and Peter. Peace
I'm not trying to be nasty... this is very frustrating... Your choice of weed over booze (at least, at the moment) is total denial!! Don't you see that weed alters your brain chemistry too?? Somehow, you have latched onto some crazy logic here, and think that weed is safe... I guarantee that you didn't check out the link that I sent... You don't really want the truth, you really want someone to agree that this is all right.. I can't do that... I know better, and see the problem clearly. Even your sister is affected by this, no?? Do you think you have some magical immunity?? Addiction to drugs (this includes booze) can have genetic implications. Do you think your sister's addiction fell out of the sky?? The warning signs are flashing, and all around you!! Obviously, noone around you, has taken the time to explain this, or, simply doesn't understand the science and it's implications to you and your family... Don't believe me- go ask a medical expert- your family doctor, the school nurse, anyone competent in the science of this. Please!! Don't do it for me. Do it for you, and your future... luv, tman
P.S. there used to be more people commenting here... remember?? What has happened to change that?? Go back thru your blog, and check your first post on drug use, and then see what happened, after that... Not too many guys know what to say, about this stuff, and would rather run in the other direction... I seem to be the only one that has tried... You know why.
hey Tman, i know weed changed my chemisty as much, but its in a different way. i never wake up and wonder what happened last night, or wake up with a headache, or throw up. i just have a good ol' time and thats it. and again, weed is only phycologicaly addictive, not physicaly. my sister isent in AA because she is addicted, shes in there because her friend is addicted to crack and heroin and shes suporting him.
and the only people who have commented regularly sence i started were you, Mark, and sometimes Billy and Andy.
Peace
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