Philosophies From A Kid

so my therapist session was normal... average... you know, its not helping that much, but then again i just started opening up to him so thats good. but when i walked out to my car, i realized i dident have my ipod. so i went back in, and it wasent there, but my therapist said hed keep an eye out for it. so now im out of an ipod.
on top of that, monday i dropped my phone and my buttons on the outside of my phone poped off, and i dident realize it. went back an hour later to look for it, they were gone... so now my phones buttons are hard to use...

i really want an iphone, i mean come on, who dosent? but, its an extra 20 buck a month, and at least 200 to buy the phone itself. but, that being said, a normal ipod that id want would be at least that too. so would it be worth an extra $240 a year to have it all in one? idk... i gota think about that haha

so day one of my trip was completly uneventful. just an 8 hour car ride of sleep and music.

day 2, much more eventful haha. we got up at 7, got ready, ate, and were on our way to the work site. we get there, 20 minuet drive, and its out in the boonies. my job for that day was to pick up a fallen room (colapsed by snow) and move it to a burn pit. that took alllllll day. and on top of that, i have bad pollin allergies. so i was in hell with the heat, sneezing, and hard work, but i knew it was for somone who really needed it, a handycaped man and his dog. we finished it all that day, there were probably 8 of us doing that. oh and did i mention i hate spiders? there were gigantic ones...

then we got home, back to a church where there was 2 main bunk rooms, and a game room including a pool table, foosball, ping pong, and air hockey, not to mention a small 4 square area too. i know it sounds awesome, and it was, but its was under kept at the same time.

that night we went to play soccer too. that was fun until i got a migraine from dehydration.

then we hung out for a little back at the house and then went to bed. btw, this year, a teacher slept in both the bunk rooms so noone could sneek out... but one kid still did and smoked weed. i was jelous haha

then came day 3. sence i had such bad allergys the day before, the leaders said i could stay back for the morning and help out with a poor house type of thing, surving coffee and bisxuits with sausage to the poor. that was interesting. we must have served 50 people. then we went back to the work site for the afternoon. my job was to cut 2x4x8's to get nailed to the ceiling for the new ceiling tiles to be stapled too. i did that for the rest of the day.

when we got home, we went and played soccer again, this time it was shirts vs. skins. i was on skins. the good thing was there were a few other bigger people on my team, so i wasent the only big guy with my shirt off. while playing, i got such bad terf burn on everywhere form me knees, to my shoulder. then we went back home, and slept.

day 4, work site again, except this time i helped put the tiles on the 2x4's i cut the day before. it was row after row of tile alighning and then stapeling.

ahhh dad walked in... ill finish later.

Peace!

so when i got back from my trip, which ill blog about tomorrow i hope, i found out 2 of my friends got into bb guns. they go into the woods and use birds as targets.

my stand has always been that hunting is ok if theres a purpose. in this case, the birds are anoying, so they shoot them. i guess thats a purpose, but i dont think thats good enough. there doing nothin with these birds they kill except feed them to the forest. i honistaly think thats just reaffirming my beliefs.

now that being said, i also believe that its their property, and i shouldent tell them what they can or cant do, so i said nothing.

wow is that really all i had to say? lame haha

btw guys, im going to the theropist today so maybe ill blog bout that too if anything good comes up haha

Peace!

hey guys, dont have enough to post about the trip/my "hunting" expirence, but i just have to rant with the time i have.

so i want my ears pierces (cuz i want gauges too) and 2 tattoos (one on the upper part of each calf saying dubito and cogito "doubt, think" in latin)

i expressed myself to my mom, who comes back with i dont want u to get either. i said why, she says it would make u look ugly. she then explains how id have to be paying for myself when im 18 cuz shes not gona help me out at all. i got pissed, told her how she just said id be on my own because im ugly, was pissed for the rest of dinner, and now am pissed still...

oh btw, cut my leg on rush and really hurt my finger... dont ya just love life?

Im home! And i might be able to get my car back today! Yay

Just passed a sighn, 22 miles to home!!!

13/15 went to play soccer. I stayed back to pack neatly. This years trip was nothing like last years but it wasent totaly bad. Tomorrow we leave... Im goin home

Thanks for all the comments guys! Sorry i cant respond now, but ill be sure to tell yall bout the trip

Peace!

Im gona kill myself.... Hour long car ride with the most anoying kid on this trip... Fml

Fml... Work/lunch/work/soccer/migrain... Nuff said

Wow the 1st day sucked... Only 3 more days... Fml

ha UT! the race is on!

so one of my friends, Nolan, told me a kid at my school, Rob, was bi. that was a shocker because apparently alot of people knew, and i dident. i dont know Rob well, but still.

so i txted the kid who told me he was bi a while back, and told him about Rob, but he knows to not tell anyone. he was like "its good to know there are others like me at our school" and that when i told him bout me. were talking about it now haha

so the kid who got his foot ran over if better today. just hurts when he touches it, but its fine to put weight on it.

so how he got his foot run over is a long story, but ill try to explain it.

so Gary (kid who got his foot run over), Colin, and Nolan (guy from above), were driving around trying to find a party, which after one thing or another, led to us putting a wooden pallet into the bed of Colin's truck to put in some ones yard. well we drove there in 2 cars, Colins and Nolans, and when we got to the girls house, cars came so we left. some kid took the pallet out of the truck, and chucked into a yard, which had cameras in it. so i was in Colins truck, and he took off fast, and Nolan was waiting for Gary to get in his car, thought he was in, ran over his foot, the rest is history.

ok so now im anxious as anything for the trip... ahhhhhhh!

ok guys, probly the last post from a computer till i get back

PEACE!!!!

so remember last year when i went on that trip to help repair homes for the needy? well im going again this year, except last year we did alot of painting, and this year were suposed to do more building. should be fun. ill txt blogger while im there again from last year.

on another note, my friend ran over another one of my friends foot, he feels like shit, the kid who got his foot run over is calm, and i think his ankle is broken. in the morning, if the ankle is still bad, he said hed tell his parents and have them take him to a doctor.

cant think of anything else to say... i feel bad cuz its been so long. um... grrr... i hate that feeling when you think you have alot to talk to a friend about, but when you hang out you forget what u were gona talk about... thats how i feel now.

sorry guys

oh im on spring break now! i leave for this trip on sunday, and come back friday.

alright im tired...

oh, i went all week without smoking. that was big for me =) but sence its the weekend, i can smoke again

alright

PEACE!

hey guys, so last week, i came out to 2 more people. they were adaults actoualy. not my parents, but my hair cutter lady (idk what their title is haha) and my theropist.

i came out to my hair cuttris? stylist? idk haha but we were talking about my summer job, and i think i told you all about how my bosses doughter had a crush on me. well she was like you should have gone out with her, get a pay raise, then dumped her. now this sounds bad, but if you knew her, shes younger person (24ish) and she will say whatevers on her mind. i was like "ehhhh..." she was like what is she ugly? i was like no... lets just call it sexual preference. she goes wait... are you gay? i was like yup. and she took it well. we dident talk about it much, but i guess its a lot to handle sence iv known her for like 4 months.

and my theropist, we were talking about the party i was at last weekend (ill tell you about that later) and he was like any hot girls there? i was like eh... he was like they were just ok? i was like well... im gay. he took it well too and told me not to worry, he wouldent tell my parents, and he's worked with LGBT comunity at a few public schools, and one of his 2 brothers is gay. so i guess its good he knows now.

so the party! it was alot of fun. it was 9 of us, and 7 of us spent the night. we had three 30 packs and a bottle of coconut rum. i brought pinaple jouice for the rum. we had a good time. only drank like 45 beers in total, and about half the bottle. it was a small bottle anyway. i only have one regret. i smoked alot of ciggarets becaus a few of the other guys smoked, and smoke alot more when there drinking. i think i had 4 that night, which isent good, i dont have to tell you guys that. well while i was at the party, 2 of my friends were bugging me about the party. they wanted to know where it was. i said i wasent going to tell them because the guy who had the party dident want it to get big at all. well they were like we'll find your car. i was like good luck then hung up on them. they txt'd me like 20 minuets later and it said "come look at your car" so a bolted outside and found them in one of the kids truck, and my windows were covered in things like "abortion kills" "believe in Jesus" "trust the bible" and my fav, "honk if you dated my husband"

i couldent help but crack up at first, then i got mad because i dident want to offend anyone and get my car keyed haha

well they left, and i was sitting on the deck like 20 minuets later, and i heard the truck come back. i went to see what they were doing this time, and they brought windex and paper towls and washed it off. they were cool about it

so now what im doing to cut back on smoking. i did get back into it. i never really said it, but i did. one of my friends and i are making rulls for outselves. 6 cigs this weekend, 5 next weekend and the weekends that fallow. im gona go a step further and try to cut back more, but no promisces. and were only smoking on the weekends, and only shortys, the smallest cigs they sell. so this wont stop me from smoking (obviously) but it will, like i said, help me cut back

also, just an update, my neck is slowly getting better. my knee is fine now cuz i only hit my knee cap. my neck im iffy about. i slept on it weird this morning, so im gona go to bed tonight, and if it still hurts tomorrow, ill tell my dad and let him give me advice. not that i dont trust you guys, i really do, but his dad was a doctor and his mom a nourse, so if he says we may wana get it checked out, he'll take me because i cant drive myself haha

ok guys, iv typed enough for one night. oh and did i mention, my key board is missing the enter key and "K"key becaus i broke them. i was getting crumbs out, and broke the retainers, so im gona find a computer shop and get some more. ill order them if i have to.

one more thing. im thinking about getting a 12 inch sub for my car. ill mount it in a box and bolt the box down in my trunk. i figure i dont need 2, and one 12 i like more than just one 10. im not doing this until atleast half way through the summer when im earning money haha

ok guys,

Peace!